So I had the chance to go to my first Secret Church last November. It was on Spiritual Warfare. I had listened to some Secret Church online, so I basically knew what I was getting into. I don't think I was quite prepared, though.
Off we went, and it wasn't very long before my brain came to a screeching halt. Pastor David said something that didn't sit right with me, so I had to look it up. Now normally, when I pause Pastor David on my computer, I research what I need to, and then hit play and resume where I left off. Uh, yeah, not at Secret Church. Once I got back with the program, he was about 4 pages from where I left off. I looked at my friend who was with me, and we almost lost it. Several people asked me later if I liked it, and I answered like this: "Um, well....."
I did like it, but it was almost too much information for me to take in at one time. I rather think I would like to listen at my own pace. Pause, research, ponder and then resume. Heck, I get lost in a one hour sermon with my questions and needs to dive into "that" further. Can you imagine me in a 6ish hour sermon? Brutal.
Normal people don't have these troubles, I'd like to add.
Another Secret Church is coming up, and No, I haven't decided if I'm going yet. ;) I'm praying over that one. But YOU should definitely go. Here's the link:
So anyway, the last Secret Church was on Spiritual Warfare. Here's the link if you want to give it a whirl. Go ahead. You can pause it when you need to:
http://www.brookhills.org/media/schurch/angels-demons-and-spiritual-warfare/
It was good for me, because this is an area where I actually, definitely don't spend a lot of time thinking. Maybe that was why I was so overwhelmed. I still want to go back and do more research on what I heard. See if I can get answers to some of my questions. But it did teach me to think differently about things that are happening in my life. To recognize that way more happens than I realize it does in the spiritual realms. To pray differently.
Back to yesterday. I have been really struggling with my blog lately. Honestly I just haven't felt like sludging through what's in my brain enough to make sense of it to get it all out. But Saturday morning, God very pointedly told me to get my Leviticus post out. He reminded me that I just need to obey Him, even when it comes to a silly little blog. And He let me see this time why it is so important to obey. I was blessed by my obedience. Tremendously.
He reminded me that I had a couple of other posts to get out too. I will obey, but I'm not gonna lie. It's kind of hard to put yourself out there like this. It's not easy. I also know that my God LOVES "not easy." And I'm glad.
And so I was working on this blog yesterday, and suddenly, it went all wonky. It was unreadable. I fiddled it with it as much as I could, but it stubbornly refused to correct itself. I waited until this morning, to see if it would correct itself overnight (!) and it didn't. The first thing that flew out of my mouth this morning was, "satan ate my blog."
Now I don't know if he really did. I don't know if he really cares about my blog at all. (Someone wrote a piece last week called, "God doesn't care about your blog." That has rang in my head all week.) But I think that I'm getting to a point in my life where not much is going to go unnoticed by satan. And I'm cool with that. I know that I'm under the hedge of protection of my Savior who has already written of satan's destruction. I know that whatever comes to me, God has allowed. So I'm good with that.
But, it made me reflect on that Secret Church and what I learned there. And maybe this wasn't exactly the take away, but I need to see everything in my life through spiritual glasses. Yeah, maybe my silly little nothing of a blog just had a glitch that made it unreadable. Or maybe, just maybe, because the inexplicable way that God keeps using this thing, maybe because of my obedience to God with it or just because, satan decided to try to mess it up. At least I need to be open to that possibility.
And I need to go get out my Secret Church notes. And review all 783 pages of them. Seems like it might be a good time to do so.
Off we went, and it wasn't very long before my brain came to a screeching halt. Pastor David said something that didn't sit right with me, so I had to look it up. Now normally, when I pause Pastor David on my computer, I research what I need to, and then hit play and resume where I left off. Uh, yeah, not at Secret Church. Once I got back with the program, he was about 4 pages from where I left off. I looked at my friend who was with me, and we almost lost it. Several people asked me later if I liked it, and I answered like this: "Um, well....."
I did like it, but it was almost too much information for me to take in at one time. I rather think I would like to listen at my own pace. Pause, research, ponder and then resume. Heck, I get lost in a one hour sermon with my questions and needs to dive into "that" further. Can you imagine me in a 6ish hour sermon? Brutal.
Normal people don't have these troubles, I'd like to add.
Another Secret Church is coming up, and No, I haven't decided if I'm going yet. ;) I'm praying over that one. But YOU should definitely go. Here's the link:
So anyway, the last Secret Church was on Spiritual Warfare. Here's the link if you want to give it a whirl. Go ahead. You can pause it when you need to:
http://www.brookhills.org/media/schurch/angels-demons-and-spiritual-warfare/
It was good for me, because this is an area where I actually, definitely don't spend a lot of time thinking. Maybe that was why I was so overwhelmed. I still want to go back and do more research on what I heard. See if I can get answers to some of my questions. But it did teach me to think differently about things that are happening in my life. To recognize that way more happens than I realize it does in the spiritual realms. To pray differently.
Back to yesterday. I have been really struggling with my blog lately. Honestly I just haven't felt like sludging through what's in my brain enough to make sense of it to get it all out. But Saturday morning, God very pointedly told me to get my Leviticus post out. He reminded me that I just need to obey Him, even when it comes to a silly little blog. And He let me see this time why it is so important to obey. I was blessed by my obedience. Tremendously.
He reminded me that I had a couple of other posts to get out too. I will obey, but I'm not gonna lie. It's kind of hard to put yourself out there like this. It's not easy. I also know that my God LOVES "not easy." And I'm glad.
And so I was working on this blog yesterday, and suddenly, it went all wonky. It was unreadable. I fiddled it with it as much as I could, but it stubbornly refused to correct itself. I waited until this morning, to see if it would correct itself overnight (!) and it didn't. The first thing that flew out of my mouth this morning was, "satan ate my blog."
Now I don't know if he really did. I don't know if he really cares about my blog at all. (Someone wrote a piece last week called, "God doesn't care about your blog." That has rang in my head all week.) But I think that I'm getting to a point in my life where not much is going to go unnoticed by satan. And I'm cool with that. I know that I'm under the hedge of protection of my Savior who has already written of satan's destruction. I know that whatever comes to me, God has allowed. So I'm good with that.
But, it made me reflect on that Secret Church and what I learned there. And maybe this wasn't exactly the take away, but I need to see everything in my life through spiritual glasses. Yeah, maybe my silly little nothing of a blog just had a glitch that made it unreadable. Or maybe, just maybe, because the inexplicable way that God keeps using this thing, maybe because of my obedience to God with it or just because, satan decided to try to mess it up. At least I need to be open to that possibility.
And I need to go get out my Secret Church notes. And review all 783 pages of them. Seems like it might be a good time to do so.
1 comment:
Okay. This is just weird. No, Satan didn't eat my blog too. :)
When I read your post about religious prosecution in other countries and torture, I immediately thought "What about spiritual torture?" I don't know if I could handle physical torture either. But I can say truthfully that I see spiritual torture regularly in my life. People who are listening to the Deceiver's voice and allowing his smoothness to rule actions and thoughts and ultimately hearts. It is choice. It. is. horrific.
Alan said once while we were there watching a football game that God tweaks everyone differently and I repeat that for comfort and I pray.
Perhaps this country is Babylon with its many temptations and choices. So much is easily accessible, convenient. We don't like hard. We certainly don't want to hear about hard either. And God's love and path aren't easy, as you say.
I hit comment on your blog then I thought "You're tired, Cin. It's early early in the morning. Let it rest." But I kept thinking it. So in the last few minutes at work yesterday, I clicked on you to find this one. I couldn't post a comment bc all I could think was 'yes' in that whisper voice of complete comprehension and recognition. Yes, we need to view the world through spiritual specs - there's something bigger moving around here.
I don't know where God is leading you right now in your blog. But as your sweet husband did months ago, you have provided me with food for thought and comfort in my own journey. As always I delight in it and your journey with God.
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