Search for a Church Part 2

There wasn't much of a search yesterday. :( Allen was playing at a church in Chelsea, and I knew I was on my on.... again. I didn't feel great by Saturday afternoon, but by Sunday, I felt horrible.

No worries. We all lay around, and watched a local church on television. Laney and I knew most of the worship songs, and that was neat. They sang some old hymns, too, and I love that.

The pastor was interesting. The title of the sermon was "Anxiety" and I've already been able to put it to use. (My sweet friend whose husband is a higher up at the Pelham police department called at 9:15 last night to tell us that two streets over, there was a home invasion where the perpetrator kicked in the door of the home, where the people where at home-awake. It was before 9 o'clock. This same person robbed someone outside of their home in Crosscreek. I couldn't answer the phone because of this blasted cough, so I checked the message at 4:30 this morning. See previous post.)

So, at 4:30 this morning, I was able to run the sermon in my head again. Things are much scarier at 4:30 in the morning, and I was tempted to panic. And be anxious. According to this pastor, "anxiety" is when we unnecessarily stress about things we can't control. "Concern" is where we are proactive in things we can do about a situation that warrants our actions. I'm assuming prayer and praise is the only cure for anxiety. Even on the "Today" show a couple of years ago, they had a guy on there saying that it's physiologically impossible to feel worry or stress while you're being thankful. I translate that spiritually into prayer and praise. It works. Can't worry and sing "I love you Lord" at the same time...

God and I brainstormed. We fixed our alarm today, which we will start using again, and some other little things we can do that I won't bore you with. What it boils down to is that I refuse to live in fear.

"God has not given me a spirit of fear...." and I stand by that. I love too, that he took a sermon, that was taped in July, that I watched at home, on death's doorstep with a blasted fever :) and made it relevant. Quick. He's so cool.

So I did see and hear things I didn't like about this pastor. God and I have been talking about whether this is a good thing or not. Making checklists, you know. This church is not one we even could join, so it's basically irrelevant, but things he did went on my list anyway!!! lol...I'm being open and flexible about this whole thing. Really trying hard. I'm so glad I'm not in charge.