Back to School!

This blog has been so very heavy for a while. For a time, I hated to have a post without pictures. Now it seems like it's a heavy, long winded, rambling clutter of thoughts that have been thought already, and without pictures to boot.

Well, if that sentence didn't just sum up what I was trying to say. Gracious.

This post will be short(er) and have pictures. That makes me happy. 

I know it was time for school to start, and I really think I was ready. I have never prayed over a school year like this one. We made it through the week! I didn't get up on time, not once. We didn't start school on time, not once. We had sickness too. But God was faithful, and week 1 is over.

I had to suppress the urge to sigh with relief after that first week was done. It's a "Whew, glad that's over..." kind of sigh. Then an "OH WAIT! I have to do that week 35 more times!!!!" moment follows. That's overwhelming. Help me, Lord, to keep my head down and look at what is directly in front of me. If I look too far ahead, I lose it. 

I've also had this conversation several times with friends here lately. I know without a doubt that God has called me to this, along with some other things too. It's not enough that He called me to do this; I know that He's equipped me to do this, ( Now the God of peace, who brought up from the dead the great Shepherd of the sheep through the blood of the eternal covenant, even Jesus our Lord, equip you in every good thing to do His will, working in us that which is pleasing in His sight, through Jesus Christ, to whom be the glory forever and ever. Amen. Hebrews 13:20-21 ) but it also seems like He makes it as hard as possible. 

Does that make sense? 

This is the image that I get in my head every time I have this conversation:

 

That's me, pulling my airplane. 


God says, "Hey, you're going to home school."

I say, "Okay!"

He says, "Okay! There you go!" 

*Exit stage left.*

I stand there wondering what just happened. 

So I do. I home school.

But, let's make it harder. Let's pile on twenty things that make it harder. 

Okay.

God?

And then it feels like that picture. I'm pulling my airplane.

But doesn't everyone feel this way? In whatever God calls you to, doesn't it sometime feel like you're pulling your airplane? With no help from Him? 

Why does He make it so hard?

I don't have all the answers but this verse rings in my head: Faithful is He who calls you, and He also will bring it to pass. (1 Thess. 5:24)

I know Paul wasn't talking about home schooling, but I'm claiming this verse anyway.

I'm claiming it for all the things that He's called me to that seem huge and impossible. 

He is faithful, and He is doing in me and getting me ready for far more than my feeble mind can imagine. 

And probably you too.

So there you go. Not too long, and has pictures.