Thoughts from an Overthinker

Sunday, January 4, 2009

Non New Year's Resolutions

Blue just feels like the new year to me. I don't know why.

I've been very in my own world since Halloween. The kids got sick back to back, then me, then Allen had his surgery, then there were the holidays, and I just let it all go. I'm not sure why, when things get so tough, I just give up. Quite the opposite of what I'm supposed to do .

Or maybe I just needed a vacation. A vacation from right. That's nice, huh? Today's sermon really spurred me on, helping me to get it all back together. I feel good when I'm doing what's right. I feel the very best.

Back to good eating. I am going to lose these 15 pounds that I've courted for far too long. I don't like eating badly, and especially don't like how I feel when I do.
Back to Bible study. I mean real Bible study.
Exercise. I had such a great thing going. I truly looked forward to my exercise. I want to get back to that. So much of my life still depends on Zane, but I have to recognize that things are getting better with him, and I need to be encouraged with that.
We are going to continue to be and get better at being good stewards of our money. Not eating out and being careful with our extra money are two biggies for us. I'm praying for discipline there.

So that's it. God has delivered me from so much that I needed to be freed from. There are almost no shows on my Tivo list, I canceled my 10 year subscription to "People" magazine, and I'm sure there are more changes to come. Not that reading "People" is bad or that watching some television is bad, but God is really asking me if I'm here to play or if I'm here to serve. I'm guessing He'll prune me more in 2009, and I'm okay with that. It hurts, it's not fun, but I'm always so very glad when it's over.

Friday, January 2, 2009

Goodbye 2008!

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Saturday, December 27, 2008

It was a very Merry one!

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Tuesday, December 23, 2008

Happy Anniversary

This is my grandparents 59th anniversary. My grandmother always said it was so hard to have an anniversary this time of year, and I think she regretted getting married on the day that they did.

I wore her wedding dress when I got married 13 1/2 years ago. That made her very happy.

This is going to be a hard Christmas for us, because for the first time in my life, my grandparents won't be at Christmas. They are both suffering, among other things, dementia and/or Alzheimer's disease. It would just be too hard for them. We can go see them later, but it's hard knowing that they won't be with us.

They certainly don't know that it's their Anniversary, and they barely know each other at this point. I want to always remember this day for them, because they were so happy. That's easy to see.

Today is sentimental too, since Allen and I got engaged today, 14 years ago. I'm glad I get to share this day with my grandparents in a small way.