Non New Year's Resolutions

Blue just feels like the new year to me. I don't know why.

I've been very in my own world since Halloween. The kids got sick back to back, then me, then Allen had his surgery, then there were the holidays, and I just let it all go. I'm not sure why, when things get so tough, I just give up. Quite the opposite of what I'm supposed to do .

Or maybe I just needed a vacation. A vacation from right. That's nice, huh? Today's sermon really spurred me on, helping me to get it all back together. I feel good when I'm doing what's right. I feel the very best.

• Back to good eating. I am going to lose these 15 pounds that I've courted for far too long. I don't like eating badly, and especially don't like how I feel when I do.
  
• Back to Bible study. I mean real Bible study.
  
• Exercise. I had such a great thing going. I truly looked forward to my exercise. I want to get back to that. So much of my life still depends on Zane, but I have to recognize that things are getting better with him, and I need to be encouraged with that.
  
• We are going to continue to be and get better at being good stewards of our money. Not eating out and being careful with our extra money are two biggies for us. I'm praying for discipline there.

So that's it. God has delivered me from so much that I needed to be freed from. There are almost no shows on my Tivo list, I canceled my 10 year subscription to "People" magazine, and I'm sure there are more changes to come. Not that reading "People" is bad or that watching some television is bad, but God is really asking me if I'm here to play or if I'm here to serve. I'm guessing He'll prune me more in 2009, and I'm okay with that. It hurts, it's not fun, but I'm always so very glad when it's over.